Thinking back..

Morning fellow bloggers I hope you are all well this Sunday morning. I love being up this early its so nice & quiet outside all you can hear are the birds ahh I love this time of day. I like being able to sit somewhere that is quiet it helps to get all my thoughts in order I swear sometimes I feel like my thoughts are going a mile a minute. So I will say I am feeling alot better now I have the occasional cough but its nothing major. For the past few weeks I have had one thing on my mind everytime I eat something healthy, think about things I want to do when I finally lose weight or look at myself in the mirror the first question I think of is "Can I really undo all the years of damage that I've done to my body" ? Is it even a possible feat at this point in my life ? I guess the only way I will know if I can do it is to try right ?

Are You Kidding Me ??

I am a feeling a bit down in the dumps at the moment & there really is no one to blame not even myself for once. I was all set to get ready to start my pills & then come to find out someone else had other plans for me I woke up the next morning with chills, shakes & high fever which equals Pneumonia this is the second time in 7 months that I've had this. I seriously have the world's worst immune system so now all I am dealing with now is the cough I am still on the antibiotics they gave me so I don't want to start anything new until I am done with them. But the plus side is since I have been sick I haven't been eating a whole lot so that is good but I have been keeping up on my water but I will say I am tired of running to the bathroom lol.


I am so tired of being sick & tired all the time. I swear I spend at least 9 out of the 12 months sick either colds, flu, strep whatever I am so tired of it. I have started taking vitamins hopefully that will help. I hate being sick I get all moody, annoyed, irritated & don't want to do anything or be bothered its like I'm in a funk any idea anyone ???

Starting New...

Morning, I hope everyone had a happy & healthy 4th yesterday. I had a good day ate pretty good didn't overeat or anything had some healthy stuff in all it was a damn good day. Now if I can only do that everyday. I am writing this post on just about an hour of sleep(ignorant neighbors) so if I come across as bitchy I apologize in advance. So referring to the title of this blog post tomorrow I start taking my Alli pills I was going to start them earlier but then I ended up with this sinus infection & was feeling like crap. I still have a bit of sinus issue but nothing like before.

I picked up this great book at the library the other day its a book by Hungry Girl called Hungry Girl: Recipes and Survival Strategies for Guilt-Free Eating in the Real World I think I am going to have to buy this books there are some great recipes in there that sound pretty good actually. She also has another one out that I haven't had a chance to get from the library yet. I got a handheld massager to see if massing my back helps with the lower back pains I have also been using it on my legs to see if it helps with the Lymphodemia the Dr said massaging should help so let's hope it does walking would be alot easier if I could get this taken care of

I Want It..Now I Don't...

I have a big problem & maybe you all can help me with it. I have a tendency to buy sweets & then I end up not eating them. Its not that I end up feeling guilty its that I end up not wanting it. A few days ago I was craving something sweet so I had AG pick me up a Hershey's bar well I ended up giving it to him last night. I had it for 2 days before I even thought about wanting it & in the end I didn't anymore. I don't know if this has anything to do with my diabetes or if I just can't make up my mind. I have been known to buy something & find it a few months later having totally forgot about it. I have tried not buy sweet stuff but it never works for very long.



I have to start getting in some movement here exercise wise I need to find something that doesn't aggravate my back & make my sciatic nerve hurt more then it does. If anyone has any ideas let me know. I am now combating insomnia yet again but hopefully since I am back to eating like I should be it will eventually correct itself. I had something else I wanted to talk about but I can't remember what it is hmm I wonder if healthy eating can improve your memory ??

Recoping...

I just realized its been 2 weeks today since I last posted geesh time flies by doesn't it. I had planned on blogging last week but we had some visitors & well I needed time to recoup not from all the fun mind you just from all the drama. AG's parents decided to drive up here this week in their RV & stay awhile. I love when his parents come to visit his family is great to be around but & yes this is a big BUT don't ever bring up weight loss around his mom. Which is why I didn't talk about it the whole time they were here. His mom has had the stomach surgery twice now due to her not being able to deal with her eating & sadly if she keeps going the way she is she is going to need it again.

Whenever anyone talks about wanting to lose weight she will go off on a tangent about how she would be skinnier if it wasn't for AG's dad sabotaging her & by that she means he would bring stuff in the house to put in his lunches for work & even though he would hide it she wouldn't stop looking until she found it finally he just gave up & kept it at work in his desk. She would also wait for him to go to bed at night & eat then go to bed. She has this irritating habit of telling people what they should & shouldn't eat she has even went as far as trying to change people's orders if they are out eating somewhere. But if you even think of questioning what she is having its the beginning of a war & an argument starting with don't tell me or question me about what I am eating.

They eat out alot at home because she won't cook & when AG's dad tries to she starts a fight about how he is making it I will say the man is a damn good cook. I have come to the realization that my stomach can't handle fried foods no matter what it is if its fried it makes my stomach hurt like hell. We finally invested in a George Foreman & OMG I love it makes cooking so much easier. So on the diet front things are going ok I just need to remember to stay on track & get my water in alot more then I have been especially with it being so hot lately. I think that is all for now going to go read & relax.

Time To Pay The Piper...

As I sit here writing this I feel like crap. My sinuses are driving me crazy but that is only a small part of why I feel like crap. I feel like crap due to the fact I have been eating like crap lately. For the past 3 days at least once a day I have been sick to my stomach I honestly think its my body telling me I need to start taking care of myself seriously. I am feeling all sluggish and yucky All the energy & good sleep I was getting when I was eating healthy has been replaced by all day yawns & broken sleep.

I am not sure if I have mentioned this before but I am going to start the Alli weight loss plan here soon I want to wait until I go & do some major grocery shopping so I can have everything I need here when I start. I am thinking about trying tofu the only bad thing I have heard is that it has no taste but I think that is my next new food to try. I am really enjoying cottage cheese alot need to find something else to do with it maybe put it in some salad or something . If any of you ave tried tofu let me know how you liked it or if you didn't heck let me know if you have any recipes I would love to try them.

Some Good Some Bad....

It's been a few days since my last post before I go one I wanted to answer a question from my last post I am 29 I will be 30 in a few months. I am glad that I am not the only person who has felt the way I do. Now to just stop feeling that way one more thing to add to my list . As I was saying its been a few days between posts and well lets just say I haven't been keeping up with the healthy eating as much as I would have liked. I don't get it there are days where I am on a roll with this healthy kick & then along comes a day where it all falls to pieces & I don't know how to stop it.

I seem to be having the same problem I had before I've never been much of a sweets fanatic but since giving up soda its like I need my sweet fix somewhere else lately that fix has come in the form of a Hershey Dark candy bar. So I need to figure this crap out & get my stuff together I need to do this come hell or high water I need to do this. I picked up a few books from the library about weight loss I can't remember the names of them at the moment but I will post about them tomorrow.

I had AG pick up some cottage cheese a few days ago & I as an adult it taste better then it did as a kid. The texture is odd I have to say oddly enough as kid the texture didn't bother me only the taste but now a days its the opposite taste ok texture is weird lol go figure. Everyone says try the one that comes with pineapples well I they didn't have any of that so plain it was & well it was still good. So one more thing to add to my list of healthy things to eat . I am always looking for more good things to add to the list if you guys have an ideas let me know .