How Much ??

When we all came to the conclusion that it was time we lost weight the first question most of us asked ourselves was "how much do I need/want to lose" ? In my case to be completely honest I need to lose a hell of alot. I told myself when I started this blog I was going to be completely honest with myself and all of because if I can't be honest then what is the sense of doing this. I am seriously overweight as for how much I actually weigh I don't know I am guessing the end of the 300's probably the beginning of the 400's.

I don't think I want to step on a scale right now I would probably be horrified to see the number & it may end up hurting me more then helping me. So for now I am not stepping on a scale plus I don't have one but I may have to invest in one. I also don't want to become dependent on the scale and end up getting depressed if I don't lose as much weight or as fast as others. My long term goal would be to lose 200 pounds I can live with being 200 pounds & after I hit that I can go from there. For me its not about being pretty or slim & trim for me its about getting healthy not worrying about my high blood pressure & things like that.

I want to live to see 40 hell even 35 I will be 30 here in a few months & I want to be in better shape & alot healthier on my 40th. I want to live to be around to walk down the aisle to marry AG , see my nieces & nephews graduate high school & I want to live long enough to go back to school & get my degree.