Losing The Outside While Finding The Inside

WW, JC & NS

2009-08-25T20:59:00.000-07:00

So you are probably reading the title & thinking WTF is she talking about but I am sure at least one person out there knows what these initials stand for but for those of you who don't let me clue you in. WW=Weight Watchers, JC=Jenny Craig & NS=Nutri System. I have been seeing these commericals alot more lately or maybe its just me. But anyways I have been thinking about joining one of them. I don't know anyone who has been on WW or JC but I know 2 people who have tried Nutri System. One person actually lost a fair amount of weight their only complaint was having to shop for food to supplement what they got from NS & the other person who I think lost a little weight said the food was nasty.

Either way after looking at them they are all way to expensive for me a the moment so back to trying to figure this all on my own which actually maybe its what I need. I need to be hands on with this and learn for myself what I should & shouldn't be eating & how much of it I should be eating. Do any of you have any trick you use to fight the battle of the bulge ? If so let me know I would greatly appreciate any info whether it be books you have read or whatever no information will be refused.

Worthless...

2009-08-16T08:05:00.000-07:00

That is how I have been feeling lately. It's time to be honest here I really feel like I am going to be this big for the rest of my life(which won't be very long if I don't do something soon). Two weeks ago I turned 30 since then I have been in a funk I guess you could call it. I feel like I don't know what the hell I am doing anymore. I had a great birthday me & AG celebrated here at home we had a nice time. He got me the Wii game Wii Resort. I have to say I suck at table tennis.

There are so many things I want to do with my life & my weight seems to be in the way. I would love to get up & go for a walk without having to stop every 5 min, not from having trouble breathing but from the pain in my back & legs the swelling in my thighs from the lymphdemia isn't helping either. I need to buy a scale I can't just get one at the store I need one what goes up to at least 500lbs I don't think I am that big but I would rather be safe then sorry. I wish I had people around me who were in my situation to talk to I don't have many female friends & the ones I do have don't seem to think they have weight problems to talking to them is like talking to the walls & well most men aren't up for talking about weight loss so here I am . I talk to AG about it but he isn't overweight & never has been so it's not the same(I hope that makes sense).

I wonder if they have online chat groups for things like that if any of you all know of any please let me know maybe talking to people in the same boat as me will help alot. I am going to try & find my way out of this funk I am in I hate feeling like this it sucks.

I Been A Farming....

2009-08-07T15:33:00.000-07:00

Well the title of this post is a little misleading I haven't been farming due to the fact well I don't have a farm but I do have some fruits & veggies from the Farmers Market lol. I got alot of stuff that I have never heard of but its fun to try new things. I got some kale, lettuce, cucumbers, cherry tomatoes, raspberries, boysenberries(which i've never had before), spinach, (never had it raw just out of the can), Kohlrabi(never had before), doughnut peaches & pluots(i've never had either of these either). I must admit I dived into the peaches, pluots & boysenberries the day I got them lol I still have alot left over though. But oh my god they are all so freaking good especially the peaches I am not a fan of regular peaches I never have been but I am hooked on these go figure. I love the idea of supposrting local business & farms this way it sucks that this market closes in Sept but I think there maybe a few more still open till Halloween. I think this year we will go to a pumpkin farm to get our pumpkin.

Yummies..

2009-07-25T18:31:00.000-07:00

The other day I was craving something sweet but I didn't want any junk food so I looked at what I had in the pantry, I had a can of pumpkin so I figured I would make pumpkin bread or muffins well I ended up coming across something I had never had before so I decided to give it a try. I found a recipe for Pumpkin Oatmeal Cookies(Vegan). Let me tell you OMG these things are delicious they were so easy to make I also posted the recipe below for those of you who don't want to click the link lol.

Pumpkin Oatmeal Cookies (vegan)

prep time: 15 minutes cooking time: 32 minutes makes 4 dozen cookies

Ingredients
2 cups flour
1 1/3 cups rolled oats
1 teaspoon baking soda
3/4 teaspoon salt
1 tsp cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon nutmeg
1 2/3 cups sugar
2/3 cup canola oil
2 tablespoons molasses
1 cup canned pumpkin, or cooked pureed pumpkin
1 teaspoon vanilla
optional: 1 tablespoon ground flax seeds (for a chewier texture)
1 cup walnuts, finely chopped
1/2 cup raisins

Directions
Preheat oven to 350.
Have ready 2 greased baking sheets.
Mix together flour, oats, baking soda, salt and spices.

In a separate bowl, mix together sugar, oil, molasses, pumpkin and vanilla (and flax seeds if using) until very well combined. Add dry ingredients to wet in 3 batches, folding to combine. Fold in walnuts and raisins.

Drop by tablespoons onto greased cookie sheets. They don't spread very much so they can be placed only an inch apart. Flatten the tops of the cookies with a fork or with your fingers, to press into cookie shape. Bake for 16 minutes at 350. If you are using two sheets of cookies on 2 levels of your oven, rotate the sheets halfway through for even baking. You'll have enough batter for 4 trays.

Remove from oven and get cookies onto a wire rack to cool. These taste best when they've had some time to cool and set. They taste even better the next day!

***Now I made a few changes to the recipe I omitted the raisins not because I don't like them but well I didn't have any at the time but the next time I make these I will try them with raisins. I also used Flax Seed Oil instead of Flax Seeds because its all I had on hand at the time I really couldn't taste anything out of the ordinary. The only way I can describe the taste of these cookies is its like gingerbread with a hint of pumpkin. While he was out I asked AG to pick up some Almond milk I heard about it on this new(well new to me) show I caught the other day. I will save that for the next post.

Thinking back..

2009-07-19T05:42:00.001-07:00

Morning fellow bloggers I hope you are all well this Sunday morning. I love being up this early its so nice & quiet outside all you can hear are the birds ahh I love this time of day. I like being able to sit somewhere that is quiet it helps to get all my thoughts in order I swear sometimes I feel like my thoughts are going a mile a minute. So I will say I am feeling alot better now I have the occasional cough but its nothing major. For the past few weeks I have had one thing on my mind everytime I eat something healthy, think about things I want to do when I finally lose weight or look at myself in the mirror the first question I think of is "Can I really undo all the years of damage that I've done to my body" ? Is it even a possible feat at this point in my life ? I guess the only way I will know if I can do it is to try right ?

Are You Kidding Me ??

2009-07-11T21:32:00.001-07:00

I am a feeling a bit down in the dumps at the moment & there really is no one to blame not even myself for once. I was all set to get ready to start my pills & then come to find out someone else had other plans for me I woke up the next morning with chills, shakes & high fever which equals Pneumonia this is the second time in 7 months that I've had this. I seriously have the world's worst immune system so now all I am dealing with now is the cough I am still on the antibiotics they gave me so I don't want to start anything new until I am done with them. But the plus side is since I have been sick I haven't been eating a whole lot so that is good but I have been keeping up on my water but I will say I am tired of running to the bathroom lol.

I am so tired of being sick & tired all the time. I swear I spend at least 9 out of the 12 months sick either colds, flu, strep whatever I am so tired of it. I have started taking vitamins hopefully that will help. I hate being sick I get all moody, annoyed, irritated & don't want to do anything or be bothered its like I'm in a funk any idea anyone ???

Starting New...

2009-07-05T05:43:00.000-07:00

Morning, I hope everyone had a happy & healthy 4th yesterday. I had a good day ate pretty good didn't overeat or anything had some healthy stuff in all it was a damn good day. Now if I can only do that everyday. I am writing this post on just about an hour of sleep(ignorant neighbors) so if I come across as bitchy I apologize in advance. So referring to the title of this blog post tomorrow I start taking my Alli pills I was going to start them earlier but then I ended up with this sinus infection & was feeling like crap. I still have a bit of sinus issue but nothing like before.

I picked up this great book at the library the other day its a book by Hungry Girl called Hungry Girl: Recipes and Survival Strategies for Guilt-Free Eating in the Real World I think I am going to have to buy this books there are some great recipes in there that sound pretty good actually. She also has another one out that I haven't had a chance to get from the library yet. I got a handheld massager to see if massing my back helps with the lower back pains I have also been using it on my legs to see if it helps with the Lymphodemia the Dr said massaging should help so let's hope it does walking would be alot easier if I could get this taken care of

I Want It..Now I Don't...

2009-06-23T12:08:00.000-07:00

I have a big problem & maybe you all can help me with it. I have a tendency to buy sweets & then I end up not eating them. Its not that I end up feeling guilty its that I end up not wanting it. A few days ago I was craving something sweet so I had AG pick me up a Hershey's bar well I ended up giving it to him last night. I had it for 2 days before I even thought about wanting it & in the end I didn't anymore. I don't know if this has anything to do with my diabetes or if I just can't make up my mind. I have been known to buy something & find it a few months later having totally forgot about it. I have tried not buy sweet stuff but it never works for very long.

I have to start getting in some movement here exercise wise I need to find something that doesn't aggravate my back & make my sciatic nerve hurt more then it does. If anyone has any ideas let me know. I am now combating insomnia yet again but hopefully since I am back to eating like I should be it will eventually correct itself. I had something else I wanted to talk about but I can't remember what it is hmm I wonder if healthy eating can improve your memory ??

Recoping...

2009-06-18T13:56:00.000-07:00

I just realized its been 2 weeks today since I last posted geesh time flies by doesn't it. I had planned on blogging last week but we had some visitors & well I needed time to recoup not from all the fun mind you just from all the drama. AG's parents decided to drive up here this week in their RV & stay awhile. I love when his parents come to visit his family is great to be around but & yes this is a big BUT don't ever bring up weight loss around his mom. Which is why I didn't talk about it the whole time they were here. His mom has had the stomach surgery twice now due to her not being able to deal with her eating & sadly if she keeps going the way she is she is going to need it again.

Whenever anyone talks about wanting to lose weight she will go off on a tangent about how she would be skinnier if it wasn't for AG's dad sabotaging her & by that she means he would bring stuff in the house to put in his lunches for work & even though he would hide it she wouldn't stop looking until she found it finally he just gave up & kept it at work in his desk. She would also wait for him to go to bed at night & eat then go to bed. She has this irritating habit of telling people what they should & shouldn't eat she has even went as far as trying to change people's orders if they are out eating somewhere. But if you even think of questioning what she is having its the beginning of a war & an argument starting with don't tell me or question me about what I am eating.

They eat out alot at home because she won't cook & when AG's dad tries to she starts a fight about how he is making it I will say the man is a damn good cook. I have come to the realization that my stomach can't handle fried foods no matter what it is if its fried it makes my stomach hurt like hell. We finally invested in a George Foreman & OMG I love it makes cooking so much easier. So on the diet front things are going ok I just need to remember to stay on track & get my water in alot more then I have been especially with it being so hot lately. I think that is all for now going to go read & relax.

Time To Pay The Piper...

2009-06-04T13:47:00.000-07:00

As I sit here writing this I feel like crap. My sinuses are driving me crazy but that is only a small part of why I feel like crap. I feel like crap due to the fact I have been eating like crap lately. For the past 3 days at least once a day I have been sick to my stomach I honestly think its my body telling me I need to start taking care of myself seriously. I am feeling all sluggish and yucky All the energy & good sleep I was getting when I was eating healthy has been replaced by all day yawns & broken sleep.

I am not sure if I have mentioned this before but I am going to start the Alli weight loss plan here soon I want to wait until I go & do some major grocery shopping so I can have everything I need here when I start. I am thinking about trying tofu the only bad thing I have heard is that it has no taste but I think that is my next new food to try. I am really enjoying cottage cheese alot need to find something else to do with it maybe put it in some salad or something . If any of you ave tried tofu let me know how you liked it or if you didn't heck let me know if you have any recipes I would love to try them.

Some Good Some Bad....

2009-05-28T23:34:00.000-07:00

It's been a few days since my last post before I go one I wanted to answer a question from my last post I am 29 I will be 30 in a few months. I am glad that I am not the only person who has felt the way I do. Now to just stop feeling that way one more thing to add to my list . As I was saying its been a few days between posts and well lets just say I haven't been keeping up with the healthy eating as much as I would have liked. I don't get it there are days where I am on a roll with this healthy kick & then along comes a day where it all falls to pieces & I don't know how to stop it.

I seem to be having the same problem I had before I've never been much of a sweets fanatic but since giving up soda its like I need my sweet fix somewhere else lately that fix has come in the form of a Hershey Dark candy bar. So I need to figure this crap out & get my stuff together I need to do this come hell or high water I need to do this. I picked up a few books from the library about weight loss I can't remember the names of them at the moment but I will post about them tomorrow.

I had AG pick up some cottage cheese a few days ago & I as an adult it taste better then it did as a kid. The texture is odd I have to say oddly enough as kid the texture didn't bother me only the taste but now a days its the opposite taste ok texture is weird lol go figure. Everyone says try the one that comes with pineapples well I they didn't have any of that so plain it was & well it was still good. So one more thing to add to my list of healthy things to eat . I am always looking for more good things to add to the list if you guys have an ideas let me know .

Finding The Inside...

2009-05-23T19:20:00.000-07:00

I had someone ask me what exactly I meant when I said "finding the inside" in the title of my blog so I figured I would explain here. When I said finding the inside I didn't mean I was looking for a skinny chick dying to get out. I meant I am looking for me fat, skinny. tall or short I am looking for me. I know this may sound dumb to some people but I honestly don't know who I am well I know my name & things like that but I don't know who Amalily is deep down inside. I lost who I was many, many years ago before I ever became overweight

I think I lost myself somewhere in my childhood. I honestly never felt like I belonged in my family if it wasn't for the fact I looked just like my dad I would be out looking for my birth parents lol. All my life for as long as I can remember I have always put myself second always making sure everyone else & everything else was ok I still do the same thing now with people if someone calls and is in a bad mood I deal with them even if I am tired, sick or whatever.

I have been thinking about it lately & I have come to a conclusion. I am not happy mentally(no I am not going to hurt myself), physically or emotionally. I don't think I have been for a long time. The unhappiness is mines & mines alone. One of the small pieces of happiness in my life is AG. For a majority of my life & I mean a huge majority I have dealt with life by faking the happy face. lying when I need to about it & keep moving along. I am not the kind of person to share my feelings with people I keep things bottled up and to myself I guess I feel its easier to not talk about it & keep it bottled up then to talk about it & show emotion. Well that is all for now I have given you all a glimpse inside my head hope you don't get loss trying to find your way out.

Hummus, Tomatoes & Carrots Oh My...

2009-05-21T21:06:00.000-07:00

I promised myself when I started eating healthy I would branch out & try new things & I did just that this week. I picked up some Spinach & Feta Hummus the other day along with some Pita bread(I read somewhere you out Hummus on it). Well I did just that & I gotta say there really is no taste to it. I am not going to throw it away cause its still fairly full I am going to look for some recipes to see if any call for hummus to see what else I can do with it if any of you have any ideas let me know. I also picked up some cherry tomatoes & some baby carrots. As a kid I liked tomatoes but as an adult I couldn't stand them but they I decided to give them a try again. I picked up some cherry ones since they are so small you can be done with them fairly quickly. I put them in with a salad I had the other night & I have to say it tasted pretty good. While we are on the topic of salad I know vinaigrette's are better for you then the other dressing but I just can't eat them I don't know if its because I feel like I am eating grease or something but my dressing of choice at this time is Thousand Island.

Of course along with eating healthy you have to drink good stuff. I am loving the Crystal Light to go packets alot I use them even when I am at home too. Earlier this week I came across some drinks that are organic they were only $ 1.00 at the time so I figured why the heck not The company is called Honest Beverages. Now what I am about to say may or may not make sense but I hope it does these drinks aren't nasty but they aren't the best thing I have ever tasted I feel like they are missing some taste. The bottle says a tad sweet I don't know if that does it any justice because I don't really taste anything sweet maybe its just my taste buds or something. I am not going to say I will never drink them again but I may try some of the other flavors they have.

I have only been doing this healthy eating for about a week & a half which probably isn't long enough to see any changes but there is one place I notice a difference. Its in my sleeping I notice I sleep better at night more soundly and longer I don't wake up & have a hard time going back to sleep & when I get up I am not yawning & wanting to crawl back into bed only after a few hours of being up. I guess eating healthy, popping some vitamins & having breakfast does help doesn't it.

The First Week..

2009-05-17T14:43:00.000-07:00

Well today marks the end of my 1st week on my diet & I have to say I did pretty good this week I guess the only real sweet thing I had this week was a rice krispy treat. I wanted to avoid calling it bad because honestly they aren't bad for you as long as you have only one occasionally as opposed to eating the whole box in one sitting. I didn't feel guilty about eating it afterward either (I am not sure if that is good or bad). But I had it & moved on I have decided to have a treat now & then now by treat I mean a rice krispy treat or something like popcorn or those 100 calorie packs I don't mean a snack of a whole pint of ice cream in one sitting.

I found the pamphlet the library has about all the Farmer's Markets & when they open I think the one near me will be open soon if not already I want to check out what they have try & support some local farmers. I have never been a fan of tomatoes but I told myself with this diet I am going to try new stuff so I am going to have AG pick up some cherry tomatoes on his way home from work & see if after all these years I have gotten a liking for them I those along with some cucumbers & mushrooms will make a good salad (I love salads).

I fell in love with 2 things in the past week one is Pomegranate Green Tea from Arizona Tea & the other is Chocolate Mousse Style Whips from Yoplait yogurt. I only picked up one just to try it out the texture is a little freaky lol but oh my its so good I will be picking up some more of those & trying out the other flavors & brands of Yoplait yogurt. I will also be checking out more of the Arizona Teas on my list of favorite drinks tea is number one well on the non-alcoholic list anyways lol. So week one went lets see what the next few weeks bring on this journey.

Good Start

2009-05-12T10:33:00.000-07:00

I started my diet Sunday morning so far so good. AG stopped at the grocery store & picked me up some things I wanted so I can get myself started. I got a bunch of fruit I decided to try some of that Kashi cereal I keep seeing the commericals for on tv. I decided on the Honey Sunshine & have to say its actually pretty good I have that with a cut up banana & some milk for breakfast in the morning. Ok now what I am about to say may sound dumb or maybe everyone else but me knew this. I have been going by the serving size on the box when I eat & I swear when I measured it out it didn't look like much but then it dawned on me it didn't look like much because I was using a fairly big bowl instead of a regular small bowl. I think that is one of my biggest problems even if I use the exactly amount of what I am eating & I put it in a huge bowl I am saying to myself ok that is not going to be enough to fill me up & I end up making myself think I am hungry when I am not.

I have also started taking vitamins & drinking more water. I need to buy a George Foreman grilling machine to use to cook meats & stuff. I am getting really tired of meat but that is a topic for another post anyways, I need to look into some healthy snacks so I can have things other then fruit & nuts I want to find a variety so I don't get bored & want to dive back into the pool of chocolate sugary goodness. If you guys have any ideas I would greatly appreciate any help you can lend me. I also started reading Half-Assed by Jennette Fulda of Pasta Queen & I also just finished The Amazing Adventures of DietGirl by Shauna Reid of The Amazing Adventures Of DietGirl which was an awesome book if you haven't read it I suggest you stop what your doing read it.

A Little Background

2009-05-10T00:16:00.000-07:00

I figured I would give you all a glimpse into my life past & present as we head toward the future. I am the youngest of 3 children. I have an older brother & sister. My brother & sister share the same dad I have a different one which I will probably occasionally refer to him as “the jackass”. I mention this for a reason keep on reading. As a child I was always chubby, big boned, whatever you want to call it. My brother & sister were skinny my sister was so skinny she looked like one of those kids you would see on tv in the Sally Struthers feed the children commercials but all that ended once the teens hit.

I wasn’t that lucky I swear if I hadn’t seen my baby pictures from when I was born I would have thought I came out of the womb overweight. A lot of the women on my dad’s side were overweight from what I have seen from the women on my mom’s side they are fairly health. I don’t know for sure if genetic like overweight grandmother & aunts play into I but if so well there is a small piece of the puzzle. For as long as I can remember I hated school well not all of school pretty much just one part of school & that was of course gym not all of gym mind you just where you had the climb the ropes(who the hell came up with that idea I can see if we were in the army for basic training but come on man its gym & we are a bunch of 5th graders) my hated continued on in 6th or 7th grade when it came time for swimming cause ummm hello me in a bathing suit at all (let alone in front of people) was not going to happen sorry pal I don’t think so.

Funny enough I didn’t hate gym in general I loved doing things like badminton, soccer even tennis(those came alone in high school). But granted as much as I liked doing them I still failed gym 2 of the 4 years in high school(yes said I know). I don’t know if it was the changing in front of people or what but I just couldn't’do it. But come senior year when I had to take 2 gym classes that year plus one gym class in night school I had no problem taking gym I still didn’t change in front of people I used the showers if I got their early enough but at night I would just show up in my clothes instead of having to change. I guess I felt ok with having to do it over because I wasn’t alone there were other people the who had also failed gym some fat some skinny, some guys, some girls. In the end I graduated all 200 and some odd pounds of me it was the middle of freaking July & here I am in a gown that fit almost like a sausage casing not quite but it was damn near close let me tell you.
　
　

How Much ??

2009-05-07T07:58:00.000-07:00

When we all came to the conclusion that it was time we lost weight the first question most of us asked ourselves was "how much do I need/want to lose" ? In my case to be completely honest I need to lose a hell of alot. I told myself when I started this blog I was going to be completely honest with myself and all of because if I can't be honest then what is the sense of doing this. I am seriously overweight as for how much I actually weigh I don't know I am guessing the end of the 300's probably the beginning of the 400's.

I don't think I want to step on a scale right now I would probably be horrified to see the number & it may end up hurting me more then helping me. So for now I am not stepping on a scale plus I don't have one but I may have to invest in one. I also don't want to become dependent on the scale and end up getting depressed if I don't lose as much weight or as fast as others. My long term goal would be to lose 200 pounds I can live with being 200 pounds & after I hit that I can go from there. For me its not about being pretty or slim & trim for me its about getting healthy not worrying about my high blood pressure & things like that.

I want to live to see 40 hell even 35 I will be 30 here in a few months & I want to be in better shape & alot healthier on my 40th. I want to live to be around to walk down the aisle to marry AG , see my nieces & nephews graduate high school & I want to live long enough to go back to school & get my degree.

Quitting Time...

2009-05-02T06:58:00.000-07:00

It is with a heavy heart that I have a confession to make up until yesterday I was drinking soda. I am so pissed off at myself for it. Up until may of last year I had been soda free for 2 years. In may I suffered a huge loss & at the point I really didn't care about myself or my health so I took up drinking soda again(which wasn't a good idea considering I am diabetic).
As the one year anniversary of my loss comes around I decided that it was time to stop drinking soda again once & for all. It wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be the first time I didn't really have any caffeine withdrawls so if I did it the first time I am sure I can do it again. I actually started yesterday so we will see how this goes.

My biggest worry is finding something to replace the caffeine I am not much of a junkie food sugar fiend but I noticed that when I gave up soda the first time I found myself buying candy & sweets alot. I wouldn't always eat them but I would buy them cause they sounded good at the time. So I need to make sure that the I need sugar doesn't come back this time around because honestly if I gave up soda to lose weight sucking down candy wouldn't really make sure sense now would it ?

Want vs Need

2009-04-25T16:29:00.000-07:00

I was having a conversation the other day with a friend of mines reguarding weight loss. She said she wants to lose weight. I responded to her by saying you may want to lose weight but I need to lose weight. She asked "well its the same thing right ?" In context I guess you can say so but in this instance when talking about weight loss a want & a need are two different things to me.

In terms of weight loss for me a want is something you can do later like oh I want to pick up some bread but I can do it later because I have some at home. As opposed to a need & to me a need is oh I need to pay my rent because if I don't I will lose my apartment. So for me losing weight is a need I don't want to lose it to buy fancy clothes, I need to lose it so save my life more then anything.

About Me...

2009-04-20T18:33:00.000-07:00

I thank you for taking time to read my blog. First off there are a few things you should know about me my name isn't Amalily its my pen name. I find it easier to be me & say the things I need to say here without worrying if anyone I know will find out its me. There are a few people in my circle of friends who will know about the blog & trust me when I say few I mean VERY few.

As for the name Amalily its a mixture of my two favorite flowers Amaryllis & Calla Lilies. The reason for this blog is to document my journey into the wonderful world(sarcasm) of weight loss.
As for the name of the blog Losing The Outside While Finding The Inside. By that I mean I want to lose weight while finding my inner healthy person I know she is in there dammit. I have been overweight for many & I mean many years but I can say I have never been in denial about my weight I know I am grossly overweight & the longer I have all this weight the shorter my life is going to be.

I am going to be 30 in a few months & it has dawned on me that if I don't do something about my weight I won't live any longer then my mother did. She passed away last year at the young age of 57 she died of a massive heartattack & in all honesty I don't want that to be me I want to live for as long as I possibly can & the first step in doing that is taking care of myself & taking the steps I need to in order to get this weight off. I have a variety of health issues in no particular order high blood pressure, type 2 diabites, pcos, lymphodemia, & a back problem. I am sure there are people out there with more problems then me but honestly that is enough for me.

So that is enough about me for now I am sure as this blog progresses I will tell a little more about myself. I hope you all stick around for the journey with me.